Friday, April 30, 2010

kite surfing

On beautiful windy afternoons in San Diego, there's nowhere better to be than Coronado. It has been my ritual, after appointments and anything that brings me to that part of town, to walk along the strand past Hotel Del, past the high rise condos to the absolute military government edge, where I must turn back again. From my parked car, I could see kites flying and my soul ran ahead from me to meet them in the sky. I imagined taking my sister and my little niece, her daughter, here, when they come visit from Guam in two weeks. The pockets of my jacket were loaded with droid phone, keys, ipod nano, and wallet. A bottle of water in my hand. I felt padded and bundled under the warm sun and was glad for the crisp fresh air.

The usual tourists were around, a small scattering because there was no corporate event on the beach this time. I always imagine one day staying with my family in one of the hotel's beachfront cottages. Walking along the path is a formula for instant civic pride -- I live in this region -- and the invigoration of belonging.

I finally noticed a man I must have passed many times before but was too caught up in my head to realize. Even at first, I quickly glanced in his direction, mostly taking in the large simple murals of art on the pavement that I was too afraid to walk over and the plastic dustpans with the word "Sand Man" written with a black sharpie. He has a nice smile and wears something like a captain's hat from The Love Boat TV show. His world is a bit sequestered from the wind and the beach, an intersection on the edge of the hotel property before the strip becomes a more public space.

And almost immediately past the turn, where the high rise condos that seem like glorified military barracks begin, the kite surfer sails over the waves breaking on sand and his arms are like rope that extend up into the sails capturing this gorgeous amazing air of the day. I never stop on my walk, but his feet sailing on a board over sand and waves and crashing waves and out into the bluer deep completely stole my breath and mesmerized me into paralysis. And only then could I more properly take in the traffic of kite surfers going down the rest of the coast, away from the Hotel Del. The energy of the air seemed to flow through their bodies, as some walked against the wind with kite in tow against one arm or attached to his waist -- as they leaned into the wind pushing forward, their task was not a mission but a complete and thrilling pleasure.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

returning to writing through blogging

I feel grateful for accessible writers who blog like Penelope Trunk who led me to Leo Babauta, a writer currently living in Guam -- and somehow, connecting to a Chamorro blogger feels like a miraculous return.

Developing a theme for my blog has been a work-in-progress. I hear the advice, "Just write!" and I have had to stray into other blogging territory to affirm that Full Circles will do just fine for now. It could change, meaning my life focus and interests may expand (or sharpen). But I know intuitively that the act of returning to the point of entry, the beginning, and starting anew is a lifelong theme I would like to hold delicately near to the consciousness of my mind and my heart.

There is so much to explore in the idea of Full Circles:

BINARIES
  • Fullness and the idea of an almost overflowing bowl of life, related to gratitude and its branch of gratefulness as told by Lynne Twist.
  • Emptiness and not quite getting there, not quite knowing your destination, not knowing you have been there already
  • The Return -- its unplanned surprise, its welcome and delight
  • The Departure -- the necessary sojourn into the void, into the lengthening so that the stretch from the origin creates a wider ring to go around the fingers of God
SYMBOLIC

Circles and mathematics, their arcs and degrees and dimensions. How they represent an unattainable perfection, unlike the more practical elliptical orbit of the earth around the sun. How even our planet is not a fully perfect sphere. Circles can be lonely or paired or in logos, in venn diagrams and bracelets along arms and necks.

Yes, there is much to explore in this circumference of life.

"We shall not cease from exploration. And the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time." --T. S. Eliot